MissAngeleca

I got a new laptop and I think I'm going to get more serious with the RPG Maker stuff, thinking about trying to draw so it can be more what I want. Of course, I'll have to get somewhat decent at drawing and learn how this will all work with my random twitches.
Welp, we'll see how far that goes.

Oh, and my health is currently just stuck at kind of an in-between; not good but not completely horrible. There's still the problem of not knowing what the hell is wrong with me and the progressive part, but that's for another time.

My writing is mostly just kept to myself, as I said previously, but I might use some of the ideas for games.

• I might just keep my writing to myself [meaning; not public]. My babies, even the adopted ones, are still going to exist, no puffpuffpuff shall be left behind!

So, not really  quitting, just keeping mostly quiet and small interations {?}

Really, it would've been ,ess trouble to go with one since da is all LOLNOPE The fucker.


Ahem, moving on, you probably notice, or just too used to it to notice, that I've been posting... Nothing.

Do not fear! I will be writing, all kinds of stuff and with my adopted cuties. However, I think I might stick to just not posting it.

Even the one's started will move to be behind scenes. They are existing, I'm not giving them up. I worked to bring them to life so I can't just break everything.
So basically,I will be here, checking around and maybe a one-shot or two will be posted and maybe get more commissions, if money was good...

Ahaha, ignore that last part. This is meant in a cheerful calm sense so, don't get too freaked out. This whole journal is like that.
You know, maybe I'll go about making more journals, it'd be only one any day or whatever I make them, but...

Think of this as the log from the sick kid. I just feel I should check in and give a little chatchatchat of my health and you guys, just a little of everything.

My writing... I can't feel it anymore. Or maybe it's just right now. I can't tell so I hesitate to do anything about it. This might be because of my worsening health.

I feel so... sad, I let everyone down, even myself.

I figured a little heyo might help me, but it's still just... weird to me. The fatigue and similar are just growing. No one can tell what's causing all of this.
It's moments like these that I just let myself talk more about it. It annoys people enough so, cutting down on it is best.

I'm lost, I'm fine with that.

Goodnight and happy Holidays.

I think I realized why my mind just... refuses to write or whatever.
Fear.
I'm afraid I'll do it wrong and that I'll even mess up my own characters. I don't want to ruin the writing or anything.  Thus, I register it as something bad, something to avoid. I don't know how to fix it or if I can.
I just wanted to post this here so it's known as to why I'm not doing much of anything.